carlilly's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - I feel numb and like the world is going too fast for me. Like I was trying to cross the highway and I'm stuck on the broken lines, everything whooshing by in a blinding blur. I am immobilized with fear for the future, and I want to apply my numb, jaw-set determination to making plans, but I don't want my future to come out of numb, jaw-set determination. I want to plan my future with bright, excited, joyful eyes. Options: (1) Move to Brooklyn and try to work for Amy/Amy's friends/RealBirth. Work hard for a little money, have a cute if small apartment, and be busy and fulfilled. (2) Move to a small town, trying to recruit friends to join me. Get an okay job and live cheaply in a good sized house. Save money. (3) Peace Corps (4) Roanoke (5) Charlottesville 10:43 pm - 08 July 2008 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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